Oh boy. I did it. I’m resigning from my steady, predictable part-time job and jumping full force into my latest project, NextGen MilSpouse. For those of you who totally missed my shameless plugs for our January 2013 launch, NextGen MilSpouse is an online magazine geared towards empowering and connecting our diverse military spouse community that puts a fresh spin on what it means to be a military spouse today. The tagline is, perhaps, one of the coolest, if not THE coolest things that has ever hatched out of my brain: Because the last thing you are is dependent.
As excited as I am about going out on a limb to put all of my blood, sweat, and coffee addiction into this project, I have to admit, I’m scared. It’s not like I was rolling in dough working for a small non-profit, but there is something comforting about a having a regular paycheck, no matter how measly it is. I am going to be cutting back on some of our discretionary spending to cover the cost of La Rubia’s part time child care, and I think we’ll be dropping cable, reducing my gym membership, and slamming the breaks on our eating out budget. Not that you asked for my money confession or anything.
My biggest fears come from the fact that I’m just scared that I might just fall flat on my face and fail in front of God, my family, my Facebook friends, and the Twittersphere <gasp>. That all the time I’ve poured into this venture that’s taken time away from my family and friends will be for naught.
<cue tiny violins everywhere>
My next biggest fear is that maybe, just maybe, I’ll succeed. Maybe I will bring something new to the table and it will open doors for me even though I would have never dreamed anything like this for myself. Ever. And then my brain just cycles back to failure. And then the possibility of success. Then failure. Then success.
And then I ask Homeskillet for a hug and he is gracious enough to hug me for as inappropriately long a time as I need.
Had you asked me 10 years ago if I thought I’d be a blogger and editor of an online magazine that I built, I would’ve 1) asked you what a blog is, and 2) laughed you out of the room. Which is kind of odd, because I laugh myself out of the room from time to time now.
And so, here I am, feeling kind of naked and kind of pitiful that I just unloaded on all of you. I want to thank all of you for being my friends and being such loyal readers. Had it not been for you and your support and feedback, I don’t think I’d be standing on this ledge (thanks a lot! I kid. I kid.) facing such an exciting and unknown future.
Oh, and don’t worry! You’re still my top priority. I’ve got so many fun and exciting things to share just for my Money Chicas and Chicos!
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